I promised not to cry when you left...

I promised not to cry when you left,
I try to stop crying,
But I obviously cannot,
Tears flow like waterfalls from my swollen eyes,
Living a trace of pure pain,
And nothing is going to stop them from keep on falling,

I try to refill the gap you left in me,
I tried with everything,
Pills,
Chocolate,
Hugs,
Cotton,
Alcohol,
But nothing worked,
The hole you left in me will never disappear,
I’ll have to learn to live with that piercing pain in my chest,
With the blood slipping from that inexistent hole

I try not to dive in this waters,
Waters of desperation,
Of loneliness,
Of forgetfulness.
But your voice is calling me from the deep,
And ghosts try to push me down into those waters,
They try to convince me that they are clam ,
When I can see how waves brake with unimaginable strength in the rocks beneath me,

All I can do is mumble that song you always sang to me before going to sleep,
And cry, cry, cry,
Hoping I wake up from this bad dream,
Wake up,
Wake up,
To open my eyes ,and see you there,
Alive,
With that warm smile you always dedicated to me,
Go and hug you,
But that is not possible ,
I know,

Please daddy , wake me up from this bad dream
I don’t wanna go on like this,
Alone,
I want you by my side,
Please daddy,
Just wake me up,
Or take me with you,

I no longer belong here.