dying inside

I'm dying inside,
It's hard to me to feel anything but pain,
pain is the only things that tells me that I'm still alive.
there is no love,
no happiness,
my soul is fading,
so is my life,
as I whatch blood escaping from the vessels in my wrists,
but it doesn't hurts at all,
the only pain I feel is inside,
as the light in my eyes fades away,
I think of all the happy moments I had,
they weren't few,but the sad ones where more.
one tear roles in my cheeks and I see the end coming.
suddenly I wake up It's all a dream,
Or so I thought,
but now it was only a window to my inner me,
who's dying slowly and pianfully.